I have learned that my skin is almost translucent. I get deeply hurt by things that should not hurt so bad.

Abdonment, father & sexual abuse, mother and suicide attempts, stepfather and his suicide have left me with a deep distrust, fears of abondonment and an inability to trust.. Though having been married for 28 yrs to a wonderful guy who has tolerated my breakdowns and hospitalizations has helped.

I have a wonderful, kind t. and he has slowly been helping me see these patterns for what they are. He explains again and again how so much trauma is responsible for these feelings and angst.

I guess I would say that what I have learned is that everything is not my fault and that people can get angry with me and it doesn't mean they are leaving me the first chance thay get.