((((((((((em)))))))))))))) ty for our talk btw... i felt so much better. much love to you girlfriend. But no.. i haven't.. i know he would never do it for me to continue at 2x.. i keep holdng out this hope that he might do such a thing if i were to need to stop or reduce it down even further. im really feeling sick about reducing... so much better and functional with 2x

you're right wb.. i read what you said.. you are so right. ANY decision is better than suffering like that.

i made it out and i ran two errands, badly but they are done. i cried.. i paced.. i called and left a message for T and i sat for a long time in my car before each errand... but i DID make it out.

ty for helping