I am terrified and shaking, and can hardly see for the tears running down my face. I have never came even close to letting anyone know about me but ok, I am trying to breath through this--

Sexual--cult from birth to the last hit last year
--(mom,dad,Fred,other men and women,and more that I cannot list here)
--Ex-husband--many years
--Pastor,Deacon
--Raped at 9 by 3 high school guys (15, 17, 18)
--Raped at 9 & 12 by Step-father

Emotional--All of the above and children, sister
--Step-father, Step-mother,
--Ex-husband
--Father--all my life
--mother--all my life
--Pastor--for many years

Physically--All sexual cult people, Step-father, Step-mother,
Ex-husband, Pastor, Deacon, Son, Mom, Dad, Ourselves

This is all I can list as I cannot list any more. I am taken back by all this, it is scaring me and I want to hit the delete button but as someone said--we are all here to heal and we cannot heal if we do not tell. But I need to send now before someone deletes.