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I'm so scared, of them. I try to understand myself, them, understand all of us. I think I'm starting to get it when I realize I haven't, I don't know all of them, and it's scaring me. One of the littles used to write on the walls and draw bad things but I managed to solve that for the most part, he still does it sometimes.

This one writes me letters, the way he writes he can't be little. He threatens me, says he's going to write on the walls with my blood and says people are going to hurt me. He's too angry. I don't get angry too much, I know I don't let myself, but I understand there's "healthy" anger. One of my alts gets angry but it seems so much more normal and "healthy".

This one won't say his name. None of them will. They let me out of hospital last night and I'm almost scared of being out now because I'm being threatened by a part of myself. The things he says I can't write and I'm just scared.

Working on finding a T but this is making me too scared. I don't know what it is. He's violent, he's angry. I grew up with not being allowed to be angry and I don't understand, I'm just too confused. I don't know what to do. I don't like not knowing who I'm scared of.