Bama, this is a difficult situation. I find it hard to use drugs as an excuse for violence but then again, I'm a recovering addict myself so I can understand where this comes from. I think that it's completely normal to still have feelings for someone after this much time. I remember the first time Cupid hit me. We dated for a year and what an amazing year is was. I joined the military after high school and went away while she was finishing school (she was a year younger). The moment I left the relationship was doomed. Two love struck teens can't survive that kind of distance for that length of time no matter how hard they try. That was 8 years ago. I still love her very much. Sometimes I think a part of me is still in love. I've been in love twice since then, but no one will ever take her place in my heart. I think wants2fly offered some extremely good advise about comtacting him. As long as you're prepared for anything I'd have to say go for it.

ryan