some of us call those "doorknob confessions." i do it all the time. It takes me a long time in session to sort of settle in and be myself, be less guarded. Sometimes it's T.. sometimes his mood or whatever sets the tone. Sometimes there isn't an explanation. It drives me crazy. To try to circumvent this issue we tried a couple of double sessions... hoping that the second hour would be 100% good stuff, having had the first hour to warm up. Nope. i ended up feeling stressed more.. like i had to do something tremendous to make it worthwhile.. and yep, the best stuff STILL came in the last 5 minutes.

echoes has a lot of valid points... the thing is just why are we doing this? i know i take a long time to come out of the candika-show that i do for everyone else.. a while to really be me with him. There are probably a lot of other reasons too.