Hmmmmmmmmm well i am looking for myself.... if anyone sees me, can you direct me back to myself? I appear to be missing. I've got a lot of my plate right now with physical health issues, of course the mental health, filing for dissability, this whole housing situation.... I'm sure there's a lot more in there....
Meanwhile there's things that need to be accomplished, and as it turns out... they're getting done. but i don't remember doing them. I had to send back my "yes i want to sub" form to the schools... and it was sent (i barely remember, but I thought it was a dream), then i asked on my student loans if i'd be getting something in the mail - they said i already completed it and it should be arriving soon... i have no recollection of doing so. Back in July they said.... News to me. At least some part of me is functioning, that is the good news. I wonder what else I've accomplished while i didn't know about it.
I do have some scary stuff coming up this and next week and i know the dissociation is getting stronger... i've been finding myself coming out of little fuges...which i can't seem to spell. I feel like i am living in a dream state. All these things are happening, and i am sleep walking through them. Especially since being in the ER Friday.... my mind has been more slippery than usual. I wish t would stay put for a while. i need her. I have no back up next week while she is gone. just a lot of scary appointments. wish i knew where my mind was....