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to me, means I can say whats on my mind.

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what do you think leads to feeling that way? i trust T.. he is awesome with me.. i don't think anyone has gotten such a complete idea of who i am.. the real me. i don't know quite what i am afraid of... i know it is ok to tell... i know he won't hurt me in any way. Maybe it is just because it is hard.. like you said... maybe i just have to keep trying... maybe it takes time?
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But is there any *PLACE* where you feel safe Candika? Do you feel safe with T? Or with others maybe?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">i feel safe with my dogs... and i thought i felt safe with T... if you had asked me a few weeks ago i would have said yes... now i wonder if i even understand what it means. i had no idea that i would hit a wall like that.

awww kiya, im sorry you're struggling too lovey. i wrote things down.. now i want to say it... i want to claim that right.