It's been 7 months since my boyfriend/ friend ripped my heart out of my chest and smashed it into a million pieces. He said he wanted to see other people. I was so shocked, and hurt that when he tried to take it all back I wouldn't listen. I was speechless, overwhelmed, and couldn't talk at all. My father passed away the next day and I just couldn't handle what had happened with both my father and my boyfriend/friend. I've been completely shut down to my boyfriend and haven't spoke to him in 7 months. I can't pick up the phone or text him, I just can't do it. And yet I spend all my time crying and praying, and then more crying. I feel beaten down and stuck in this somber lonely existence. I don't know what to do. Please help