(((daffyok)))

Dealing with the loss of a parent, even in the best circumstances can be overwhelming. I'm so sorry that you are having to deal with all of this.

I think it is ok that you don't want to talk to your boyfriend. There is nothing wrong with wanting space after a relationship ends.

It is also very normal to cry, be angry, be sad, be mad, plead with god, etc. when you are in the process of grieving. So, be kind to yourself.

Have you considered talking to someone?

A professional counselor or therapist would be able to help guide you through the grieving process, and provide some support. Just having someone who is there just for *you* can feel really good.

When my life hit a roadblock, I finally went to see a therapist. At first I didn't want to go, but it has been such a blessing and a huge help.

I send you hugs, and hope.