Hi Sanguis, Sorry to hear you too are struggling tonite. I hope you are able to stay safe and refrain from injury. I know how you are struggling with it. Do your parents realize that if you have an SI addiction it is just as hard to try to break as if you were addited to .alcohol ar drugs. I'll bet if it were one of the others you would already have been wisked off to therapy or rehab. Yiu can't do it yourself. I know this for a fact because as you already know I have and am still battling with it despite the numerous supports I have. Can another counselor or possibly a teacher you know speak to your parents on your behalf? I'm not saying that you will get cured over night, but you are so young and maybe that will give you the opportunity to get a grip on things and start recovery now so you don't end up like myself and so many others who are struggling after so many years. Like any other addiction, my belief is that the longer you wait the harder the proess will be for you. I wish you well and support is here if I can help in any way. Take care