My feelings leading to being able to say whats on my mind...

Some days I do, some days I don't. I don't think I've ever had a totally positive and emotionally healthy relationship with someone who should be this important to my overall wellbeing.

It does take time. Some times a lot more than we'd want.

Maybe you're scared that he WOULD accept you? I'm scared like that sometimes... I don't like me, and the thought of someone actually accepting me for me - totally ruins my cognitive distortions and opinions/comments by other people in my life.

I love dogs. I always felt safe with my family's dog. Don't beat yourself up over this. Things will happen when they happen. And your T sounds great, and doesn't sound like he'd ever leave you.