Raceka,
The main job of a T is to get us to go where we don't want to, feel what we never want and say what we are totally afraid of saying. It's a really tough job to help us go to the bad places in our lives and they get precious little thanks for it.
They have to be objective enough to know when to push and when to hold back and just comfort us. We will never get over the past without some confrontations with that past.
Be patient with yourself, OK?? We all go through these insecure times and have trouble coming out from denial and numbness. It's gonna be ok, really! Leslie