Rox,

Please push yourself to make the positive list. It is so easy for most of us to own the bad things we feel guilty about. That is NOT the whole story!

If you balanced your survival against the things YOU chose to do wrong - it would land heavy on the side of survival and trying hard.

Much of the bad you think you chose they CONDITIONED AND PROGRAMMED YOU FOR IT!!! They own the blame and shame of that. You did not choose to do many of those things, you did what you HAD to do!!

I think that your boys really will be compassionate, just as my girls have been about the sordid stuff in my past that is really far out and creepy!!

Leslie and the Pixies

Hugs for Surviving!!!