Xylia,

Some of the abuse I experienced my mother denied outright and some of my memories are fuzzy and fragmented.

I say all the above to say to you that YOU MUST VALIDATE YOUR OWN PERCEPTIONS. If you wait for your family to validate you, you may wait forever and spend your life somewhere in the past or future, but never in the present.

I had to (painfully) let go the strong drive to force them to acknowledge how badly they hurt me and distorted my life. My mom died in 1992 - long before I was ready for her to die and she never admitted the many abusive things she did to me and the many healthy things she never did for me.

Now that mom is gone, IT IS MY JOB to pursue wellness and move through healing into a happier future. It can be done, you are getting into earlier than I was able to start therapy. Don't give up, you will get there!!! Hugs,

Leslie