I understand, Lexy. My mate told me, "I'll never leave you, Pinky" -- for 15 years!

When Hillary Clinton first heard the story that Bill was, you know, with Monica, she wrote that she felt like she couldn't breathe in her autobiography.

For the next 20 months after I was abandoned, I had to focus on breathing and putting one step in front of another, and taking showers, and eating. I've just taken over paying my bills again -- and I realize that I was mentally unable to do this with something of a shock. Not just not working and without money -- but unable to keep track of bill paying.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling so awful. But know that it is a commone experience, and we live through it. I'm not quite sure how, but we do.