I have this incredible anxiety that school will start and I won't be ready. My classroom has been changed but the new one isn't ready yet and we have students in a week. I am also moving into a new department so all these "new" things are making me very anxious. But what I realized is that this is a direct result of T being on vacation now. When I was a girl I was always worried that I wouldn't be ready for school. My mother was not around (working) and there was no money for school supplies or clothes. (So she just ignored it all.)

I used to be so worried that I wouldn't be ready for school. There was no back to school shopping and the first day of school was not any kind of special event. But when I was in school I felt much more protected than when I was at home.

Sigh. With T away, I feel like I won't be ready for school.