i lost my post i am confused my head swims what is the truth. Was i abusd my body emotions ect say yes no pictures why. i wander aimlessly being shoved this way and that but what people say. i can't filter wha is mine and what is not. Who am I My head swims and feels like it will snap I used to think i made this up to get attention now i know that this is not there for no reason. My life is ugly. I need help I see a T i go to AA more confusion. I have a Doc dont understand what is wrong with me why is life so hard for me why is connecting to others so hard for me. AHHHHHHHHHH