Hello my friend. I have read this thread carefully and thru & thru, and I'm coming up empty.

I don't go out in public either, and I've been surprised, (and not in a good way), by my friends responses to the last year and some's events...

I do know that wherever I go, there I will be, so as much as I fantasize about moving to a new town where noone knows me and starting completely over...in reality, I'd still have most of the same old issues to work thru. so might as well start to do it where I am.

My self-esteem got squashed, too... So the one thing I can say is that I think we have a lot in common when it comes to underlying issues, and I think you are really TERRIFIC as I know you know, so that's a positive thing...Still not coming up with anything very inspiring to say...

I care about you, (((((Heidu))))) = that I CAN say for sure! Your friend, Jill aka Peanut

<font color=blue>HI FROM PEANUT </font color=blue>