its been like over 200 days since I cut. or did any sort of SI.

After yesterdays birthday fizzle, i am just crawling out of my skin today. dont want to be around nobody, dont wanna talk to nobody. Nobody called, Thanks to the friends here i am feeling kinda loved.....you guys seem to step up to the plate. Seeing as though my family and friends all forgot. except my mom. thank GOD or id be over the edge. too many woulda coulda shoulda's in my life right now. Need a pity party today and a fresh start tomorrow. just dont know if I have anothe in me.

Would much rather take the alternative. thanks for listening.
colleen