Physically and mentally. I'll keep this one short but I look and feel so destroyed and beaten. I'm a young adult. I shouldn't be like this. As if the wheelchair wasn't enough, now I'm stuck waiting to hear if my eye is messed up for good or if it can be fixed.

I know things could be worse, things can always be worse, but I just feel crushed. I'm supposed to be strong! I know people see my definition of strength as probably a little (or very) incorrect, but that's what I was taught and I don't live up to it. In what I know, what I was taught, to be weak and to rely on other people to get you out of a mess you created yourself is a terrible, terrible thing.

People tell me I'm a survivor but I don't feel like one. I feel weak, broken, destroyed, defeated. I feel like I'm whining about stupid problems that I should just get over because I've been told things could be worse. Waiting on doctors to tell me things is not fun.