Silversparrow,
You said you were trying to keep your mind sidetracked from the whole therapy ordeal...
Try changing the word ordeal to opportunity. This is a chance to touch bases with someone who may be able to help you deal with some issues that are making life tough.
The way we label something can have a huge impact on wether we find it good or bad.
I know you don't know me, but I'd encourage you to give this a fair chance going in. This may proved to be the most helpful thing you have done in a long time....At least be objective going in.
I hope this all goes very well for you! Leslie