this is bugging me bad today...won't use the word hurting tho it's closer to the truth...but i feel weak when i own to that word....

anyways...i posted this in grief and loss but it's prob more appropriate here...sorry i don't wanna repost the whole thing just the bit i feel is....oh nvm...this is just the bit that is bugging my brain today....sorry if anybody is sick of me posting so much in here lately...

"i was talking about being left with amnesia after an attack when i was 11 yrs old.

it took 16 years for little bits of memory to start coming back and i still only have little bits....and i also have ongoing memory problems coz head damage was done.

that means when i see my kids for contact day i have to be told which is which...when my sis comes to visit she has to tell me it's her....

that is what i am grieving for....that all of that can never be changed beyond a point coz head damage is head damage ya know?"