Thanks Sannah. I saw my therapist today and she was very supportive as you said. She now is going to follow up with me on a daily basis via phone call. I will call her in afternoons and leave vmail and then she will all me back between app'ts to help keep me safe - at least until I get into out patient. She also wondered why I did not call her when the first two strategies didn't work - i told her I didn't want to bother her or anybody else as they have lives of their own. She wouldn't accept that as she said that is what her being my support team is and I have to utilize her when I need to no matter what. She asked why I didn't have their clinic emergency # on my safety plan and that I need to use it and they will get ahold of her so she can contact me back to intervene. When I left app't she sent me to the nurse to make sure wound were not threatening or infected. The nurse talked to me for another 40 minutes about slipping up and suh and that I would be ok and start over and try to go longer and use my resources and not give up if one doesn't work go on to the next. So far I am working on day #one since relapse.