Well I posted in general yesterday, which would explain this post today.

i ended up in my kitchen ...angry...whack whack whack.
Not my usual choice of demise. Usually I'm very controlled and like I have said I would normally choose something to cause pain mostly with as lil damage as possible. (yes i am a cutter -1of my choices)

I don't like to see the damage, but I like to feel the pain.

The effect it had on me last night...made me pass right out. I feel exhausted...sedated even. Not suprised.

I feel like shi* basically.

Oh Well.