Christina, I often felt like you do about meetings. There are many paths to recovery. Finding your own way can be a challenge, but AA is not necessarily right for everybody. Although, if you do decide to go, take what works for you and leave the rest. If some things make sense and help you stay sober then remember that and ignore the rest. I, personally, don't attend AA or NA. It is a tough road to sobriety on your own but it can be done. No matter what, I think it is imperative that you work some type of recovery program. PM me any time. Good luck!