only you know your own voice ,sometimes its hard to remember what we really sound like within the crowded mind, i suggest u sit quite with a pad and pen alone if poss with someone you trust completely if not and ask yourself the burning question, do not stop to question, just jot down your first throught, look at what you have written and spend alittle time thinking over your decision with time and you on your side you are sure to find what you are looking for i have great faith in you

love and light always