Hello, and welcome WantsSomeTruth!!!

I am quite impressed by your post, because I can see a person who really thinks about things, and is trying hard to make good decisions.

I'm not sure if it will help, but I barely dated in high school. Instead I focused on my studies, friends, and extra-curricular activities. Once I got to college, things changed, and I did start to date.

I am happy with the choices I made, and I don't regret waiting to seriously date.

IMHO, it takes two whole people to make a healthy relationship. What you are doing right now -- focusing on yourself -- is the most important thing you can do.

I have faith that when the time is right, and the person is right you will date. Try to be kind to yourself. There is absolutely nothing wrong with waiting for the right time/person.