I'll agree with you that I need to not focus on dating, that's my problem. I want to forget about it for awhile, but I keep thinking about dating because I desire to have a lover. And I've been wondering why do I want a lover so badly, when I don't have to have a lover in my life. And I was curious, is it maybe I'm missing something, so I search for love in the feeble hope of being whole. But I know that love doesn't make you whole, at least the romantic love doesn't.

Like I said, I don't know where to begin to conquer my hopeless and this need to date.