I am new hear and this is totally a different or shall I say only venue to speak about my bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed in 05. However like so many I have since learned, I didn't embrace my diagnosis and went off meds when I felt better or perhaps it was the narcissist in me that wouldn't allow myself to think that I was somehow defective.
I have hurt the only woman who has truly loved me. She gave me the most beautiful daughter. We were together for 7 years. My illness has caused my life to just be so screwed up. I have destroyed any trust I had with her, she said she will never get back with me and I am just crushed about losing my family. I know she is just hurt now but I need to fix my life. I have had 3 voluntary hospitalizations but I hated the atmosphere. I need to get into an impatient facility. I live in New York. Does anyone know of any? I need my life.