Thread: Argh!
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Old Aug 21, 2008, 01:28 AM
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Thanks, all.

I sent T the most scathing, hateful, angry e-mail tonight. I have never done anything even remotely like that before - to him or anyone else. I am SO not a scathing, hateful, angry e-mailer. My appointment is tomorrow at noon. On the one hand, I'm tempted to skip it....on the other, I want to go there in person and tell him what a %#@&#! %#@&#! I think he is.

I don't know if I hate him or if this is negative transference. When I step back and look at it objectively (not easy to do) my feelings do seem out of proportion to the situation. But on the other hand, I feel like I've taken some big risks in therapy lately, and really let him in, and like he isn't keeping up his end of the bargain....and that PISSES ME OFF and makes me feel like all of his "caring" is a big fake show. Ugh. UGH!

I'm sure I'll update tomorrow after my appointment. I'll probably update the medal race on the Olympic thread too. Right now, he is definitely in the running for Gold for Biggest %#@&#!, and I'm leading the race for Most Inappropriately Hateful E-mail.