(((((((((((( cuddlgrl ))))))))))))))))

I'm so sorry your conversation went so poorly. It certainly sounds like you had good reasons to not have contact with her for 14 years. It's so normal to want to try again since she is your mom and our hearts always want to be close to our moms, its a natural feeling to have.

Sometimes we need reminders as to why we don't have a relationship with certain people. Maybe this was your reminder. Whatever you mom's illness is, I think you are right that there isn't much you can do to help her.

Probably the best you can do is to put your energy into yourself to make you the best person you can be. Sometimes certain relationships are toxic and cannot be repaired just because we love someone and want to have a good, healthy relationship with them.....and it's so sad when that doesn't work

You certainly cannot control what your mom thinks or how she feels. You can control you! If you know in your heart that you have done the best you could do by contacting your mom and trying to have a relationship.....then you can go on with your life with the knowledge that you tried.....and your intent was good.

You and your mom and your family are in my prayers. First and foremost, please take good care of YOU.


sabby