Escape is right --

I've only found out in past few months that ptsd is behind a lot of my actions - Still learning about the results of ptsd and ways to deal with it.

The comments from others about the news and movie/TV shows is right on target. I quit both the news and the movies years ago - Haven't watched war movies in ages.

Haven't fired a weapon in 40 years - sometimes tempted to do some shooting because I can kind of feel that little thrill that comes with the power of a weapon and the feeling of accomplishment at hitting a distant or difficult target, but I know also the trauma that comes with the flashbacks and the effect it has on me. Wouldn't do paint ball if I were paid to do it. --

Can you imagine, playing at shooting someone.

Can you imagine, playing at killing someone.

Can you imagine, playing at maiming someone for life

Can you imagine, playing at seeing dead and wounded

(Man, gotta stop, I'm working up a rant and and starting to trigger myself -- can you imagine!)

T.