Sannah... I know the frustrations when it comes to weight loss attempts.

I'm so close to where I need to be that I can almost taste it............ yet so far away and the sad thing is that for years I've been defining myself by my size. I see nothing else.. no personality.. no talents.. just size and it drives me mad... and it brings me WAaaayyyy down low.

Ok.. so someone might say "if you don't like your size then do something about it". Um...... I've done a bunch in less than a year but I can't get past this point and it's not good enough.

I just feel like I need to be the right size to have one last shot at having a life.

I'm the last person qualified to give any advice, but I will say to you.. don't GIVE UP. Even if it's just a few pounds that you want to lose, that few pounds will make a difference in your health (emotional and physical) and your energy level. I think I do this just to try to make my mind feel better and my health improving is just a perk.. yanno?