Well I had a very sad t session. My t help me to take Dads letter and break it down into parts so I could process it better and try to keep my alters from really coming out. Especially the alter that protects me. He accused me of physically abusing my son and my son took up for me and told him that I wasn't the one to hit him and leave marks. My son told him that he was the one who abused. I was having alot of different emotions and I still am. I just can't believe that my own father lied. He just outright lied. I can't believe it! So my t and I made a gameplan. For now I only go down to visit for two or three nights at a time and I am going to cut going down to visit so much. I really need to heal and going down and having to deal with all the fighting and emotion isn't going to help me. I have started to come to terms that my family are unsafe and triggers for me. I have suffered at their hands for 39 years. It's time for me to start taking my life back. I just realize today that my dad hit me also. He would whip me so hard that I would have blood running down my legs. I have also come to terms with the fact that my dad is never going to accept me for who I am and what I am going through. I hope that you will be my new family because I look forward to talking to all of you and feel the support, warmth, and love. And I like trying to help others. I just don't know what I would do without you all!