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Everyone here is right hon......you are not bad because you are mad. Do you know what I used to do when I was a kid and I would get so mad at something and so very frustrated?? I used to take my pillow and punch it and bite it really really hard. It really helped me to release some of my anger and frustration and I felt better afterwards!
I think you wrote out your feelings very well. If you are having trouble talking to T about them, why not print off what you wrote here and bring it with you and give it to T? Writing can be very helpful when you can't seem to get the words out of your mouth
Wishing you and everyone with you well!

sabby