That's a beautiful story actually....

175 lbs is a normal weight for me (former gymnast and body builder) so that weight puts me at about a size 9. I'd be thrilled with that.... but these last 30 lbs or so are frustrating me.

I know how people look at big people. I spent a long time being "looked" at... and sometimes got the comments, or overheard people say nasty things and I just think that if I can look normal that this will be one less thing to deal with.

I don't want to be me anymore.... rational or irrational.. it doesn't matter.. it's the way I feel.