dunno hun, haven't had a rupture yet. ever. in 5 years with as many t's. because i never tell them when i am upset with them or if they hurt me.
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i even cut sometimes because of what a t said to me rather than tell them that i was hurting because of them. I didn't even then tell them that the reason I cut was due to the pain of what they said. I held all that inside.
Even currently, when T told me this week that it is good when i tell her that I am upset (*which i haven't - she has it confused with something TOTALLY different * ) -which would have been a great lead in to saying "btw T, you never call on vacay when you say you will"... i didn't do it. I can't do it. It hurts to much for me to say that because it feels like the burden of their happiness is on me.

So as much as it hurt for you to go through this, i think it is really very healthy for you to be honest with t and work through this. It is exactly what they want for us - and i really do think it is healthy. Many many KUDOS!!!! Hang in there, keep talking this through - write T all your thoughts and feelings!!! Now that I've written all this, I will try to re-compose this in an email for t and maybe finally tell her .... but I still can't tell her it hurt me. That feels like too big a burden.
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