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I am supposed to be able to tell them when I am angry with them.... and that is ok. I still can't do it yet. When MD did call me, all that fell away. I never told her I was upset. When T didn't call on her vacation (again) like she said she would, I didn't tell her. And yet she wants me too. I don't get it.

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This is really hard for me too. T has always encouraged me - from practically the first session in therapy - to be angry at him and to tell him I'm angry. And there have been times when I've been angry - but then I convince myself that I'm being unreasonable, and I let it go without ever telling him.

We've bickered in session - but that feels different than anger - we're disagreeing on something, but it's fun.

I think this time I felt hurt badly enough - and the timing was SOOOOOOOOOO terrible, I mean as bad as it could be - that I just let him know how angry I was.

I'm sure it will all work out, but right now I feel sad to have this rift between me and T. I do think a lot of really deep, important issues have come up as a result of this though - it's definitely given us a lot of new stuff to work on.

But I miss T. I really want it to be Monday so we can be in the same room and maybe work some more towards recovering from this rupture.

No wonder I have a migraine today!