Thanks for asking! Last night I wasn't on because I was busy with my daughter (her and my inner child!)
Yesterday I think was a really good, positive day although I'm having difficulty remembering what I did.
Monday moring I saw my pdoc and he even suggested hospitalization, that's how unstable I was. I refused and refused any med changes, except to take Xanax at bedtime too because I wasn't sleeping well.
Monday and Tuesday were bad, and then Wed was good for some reason, and I've been doing pretty well lately. Haven't had to take any Xanax during the day this week, and the SI urges decreased a lot. I think I get stronger every time I go through this and come out ok, without having hurt myself. I guess the xanax doesn't leave as much guilt...I'm slowly learning.
Take care and stay safe!