..... but victim of bullies

.......victim of narcissistic mother

......heartless father

........ heartless work colleagues

........of own stupidity

...........no self esteem

.........no confidence

...........histrionic, borderline, ptsd, anxiety, depression, DID,

all stemmed from childhood sexual, emotional and sometimes physical abuse ....... yes it's so easy to say the past is the past, get over it, look o the future, only YOU can get better by not letting the past win ......

NOT SO EASY SOMETIMES ....... i want to scream,cry get hysterical today ....IT'S HOW I FEEL .......

i want to kill that perverted selfish, dirty bastard that ruined my life and every other damned paedophile on this planet ..... please please dont tell me i need to forgive to get over it .....

i will never forgive him .... i can forgive the bullies because i put myself in a poition to be bullied by not sticking up for myself ......

i am having a bad day..... i'm sorry