Like most others posting here, Inky I think you need to PLAN how to take care of yourself. You told friends to stand nearby, so you CAN decide how to act and put the plan into effect.

Being brave is about doing the action, not about feeling less fear. Looking him straight in the eye and saying NO will be very empowering. You don't have to stay in PTSD forever, you can and will change (I speak from experience). Do ALL you can to PROTECT yourself.

It is SO WRONG for someone in a service profession to use the power of that profession to exploit someone else. That Bites!!! IF a policeman pressures you to exploit you sexually or any other way, He BECOMES A PREDATOR. That is criminal.

So, do all you can to keep others near and plan how to react before you will see him. YOU were victimized before, I'm guessing, but YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM - YOU ARE A SURVIVOR!

Leslieann, getting off my--->