Hi,

I've been reading these posts because I'm back into my overeating. I eat totally crazy and then hate what I'm doing to myself.

It's been months since I ate any balanced meals. It's like I've turned into a kid and only eat sweets for most of my meals. I spend more money on candy than any other kind of food lately.

I've had periods of recovery and remission and I started overeating sweets again when my youngest child married and moved out and I had to start dealing with my empty nest and empty marriage.

I relate to the feelings you all write if not the exact actions of purging.

I've food restricted, overeaten and just eating spazzy for periods of time and gone from extreme low to over 200 lbs.

I really miss recovrey when food did not boss me around and I could walk away without bingeing and be happy. I miss the good OA program I had once and a thing called Weigh Down Workshop that really worked for me. I hate doing bad things to myself and feeling guilty when God has done so much to show His love to me.

Thanks for being out there, even if we don't know each other. I've got so many issues to work on, that I postponed this eating thing, but It is messing up my other issues work like using drugs would.

I want to go back into recovery and be sane again, I miss it so badly.

thanks All, I will pray for you all and hope for better things in your life!

Leslieann