I am told I overwhelm people. That my honesty scares people away. That my life is ugly and people don't want to see it. In a sense I am ugly becuase of what I represent. I am told over and over do this do that. I just want to be but i guess they are trying to help in there own way. The only people who seem to accept me are T cause that is the nature of the relationship. When people see the real insecure broken damaged person that i am they run i can never seem to fit anywhere. Oh it is cause i don't have a God. Whatever i pray all the time. Funny yesterday at a meeting someone told me i have a curse. What the heck. I won't give up I have not come this far to quit now. You are not a curse you are a blessing. We are simple because we kept our inner soul protected for many years.