Thanks everyone. It's an emotional time for me right now. My nerves are shot to hell.

On top of worrying about my mom, my T goes for her scan to see if her cancer has come back. She has beat it twice now so I'm hopeful, but it's still scary.

The ghosts of my family are hovering around too. I feel like that little ten-year-old who lost her father. And even though I was an adult when my two brothers died, I still feel small.

The little one is grieving for so many lost and she's fearing the loss ahead.