Thats one thing about bi polar, I tend to want to do things ligit right out of the blue, or did...Sometimes I have my moments, and sometimes I even try to do these positive things, but i never continue to keep doing them, some of things that I try and do. I also had a hard time with working, I got really irritated with all the jobs I've had, and I had my episodes is what I'll call them, I always quit cause I couldn't handle it. I too like you, get very panicky when I wake up sometimes, and it happens more when I wake up then during the day, i shake, my heart is racing, my mind..and I know it's time to take my medicine which I take xanax for this problem. I don't think things like this just "go away" this is something you're going to live with the rest of your life, it's how you deal with your life in a optimistic way..it seemed impossible for me to do, I know you're going to think easier said then done, I've been there hun, and it aint no walk in the park, but with the right doctor, and the right medicine, and working on my life rather then working on finding a job just for money and a job I did not like at all, when I got to feeling better, I decided to go to college for computers which I do enjoy and it's always been one of my "escapes". When I had break downs, I had to go to my doc right away, I have a very good one, some people have not so good ones, I'm not going to tell you to go on this medicine cause it's better, or do this that and the other thing like some people do, cause everything works better for some then others. The only thing I can say is you're not alone, and there have been times my bi polar medicine is pretty pricey after paying our bills, getting food to last us awhile, I don't have much money for this medicine and sometimes we go broke from it, but hey I need it. If you ever just want to talk or something, just hit me up on yahoo joutlaw925. I'm sorry you're going through this..do you have a pill thats for panic attacks you can take to calm you down? Are you taking something for Bi polar?