Hey hun... Im really sorry I wasnt here for you, I was meant to be on holiday then ended up in hospital instead
so trying to catch up with everything!
I hope you managed to resist your urges, when and if you ever get like that again try and write your feelings down and you may find out what that 'something' was you felt you needed.
Hope ur feeling better - meggs x
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