Sannah Yah I dont want to be like my mom at all. I also dont want to feel like there is something wrong with me that needs to be fixed. That makes me feel like whatever i feel is some sort of pathology and it needs to be fixed. I just want to be me. I am who I am and my reactions are fine, I need to let them pass and not fight them. I get the feeling people are angry that I brought this up. Im not saying being mentally ill is something to be ashamed of but also the word or phrase mentally ill means that your brain is not well. I think telling people who have had trauma that they are ill is not helpful. I think I am pretty well considering everything that happened to me. My sister had a "psychotic break" friday and when I saw her in the back of the cop car it was clear she was "ill" I dont know what Im trying to say. I dont know, I just am afraid that your right that i am the same as my mom. Yuck,