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dont want to feel like there is something wrong with me that needs to be fixed.

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It's my supposition that this is the crux of your original post and the theme of the thread. It isn't a good feeling to have, for sure.

But, you cannot merely wish away the truth of PTSD and it's effects upon your life, anyone's life, everyone's life. Where you are is part of the healing process, imo. If you are not able to hear that yes, PTSD is a disorder of mental unwellness, then you aren't ready to hear it, that's all. But at some point in therapy you will hear it, and not necessarily embrace it but "allow" it. Then, as healing progresses you will work through it, much as anyone with an incurable illness.

It's ok to not want to call it a mental illness, imo. But you simply cannot deny the horrible and sometimes crazy feelings it causes, and still heal. Accept it, blame the aberrant behavior on the disorder, learn to counter what you can and find the best life you can in spite of it.