Sorry I post here but don't always support others, I feel bad for that.

Just not in a good place today. Am I ever in a good place? I'm scared, I'm lonely, I don't like being like this. No one has to reply or anything because I feel like I've been a huge drag lately, but it just gets to be too much. I'm a little sick of seeing my own name here, I post too much.

I look at my scars and I want to slash them open so bad, I want to hurt myself where I'm already injured. I have to go for a follow-up doctor appointment tomorrow, maybe the doctor will finally give me a straight answer, but I just feel all of me yelling at me to cancel and just open these old wounds.

Sorry guys. I hope everyone else is well.